I have been alive too long (don't worry, not in the way you're thinking). There are way too memories to keep track of. High school feels like yesterday, and yet, it was 4 years ago. I have been to three different colleges, I have been in and out of the most serious relationship of my life, I've watched myself and my friends grow up and move and change. It's an overwhelming feeling, that your life isn't brief. That your life is so long, and that so much can happen in one month, let alone 80-90 years. 2008 feels like a recent year, but in 2008, I was in the marching band, had one best friend whom I rarely talk to anymore, and still believed in God. Now I'm a fourth-year Computer Science major building his first actual game from the ground up, I'm in my second year of living away from home, and in 5 1/2 quarters, I'll be graduating college, ready to be a full adult. To think that all this can happen, and I'm still only a quarter done with life is fantastically monumental. So many experiences to recount, and yet triple that to come. I want to have my life memorized, I want to analyze it, and view it from different angles, and see all the strings connecting me to everyone and everything else. Time seems to be racing by at an incredibly slow pace. Where did it go? How can so much happen, without any time passing? I feel like I have grown so much, and yet I'm the same awkward kid I was in high school and before. When will I be looking back at this blog post and realize that 5 years have passed? Will I be content with the actions I've taken? Will I have done not enough? Too much? Who will I still be in contact with? Where will I be living? These questions can only be answered with time. It is by trying to ponder these questions I have realized that the magnitude of one's life cannot possibly be fathomed in a single moment.
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I may or may not have recently gotten Facebook Timeline.
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